-my la la land
by: christina tay

i heard you tried so hard to move on.. was i that much of a bother?
there are so many things still running through in my mind,
but i know the you i miss isnt the current one here.
i guess the one i fell in love with died...
and even as i stare at the ceiling on the other side of the world,
you still run through my mind.
i thought i found another guy, but i still can't like..
i really can't keep lying to myself anymore..
i'm trying so hard to let go because i want to live in the future..
i don't want to live in the past anymore because you left me behind..
a lot of times i ask why.. and sometimes i even feel a little hatred..
but in the end.. no matter what you've done..
i don't understand why my heart still keeps loving you..
and i seriously can't wait til i find another..
another more better than you.. someone who could make me happier than you did..
at the end of the day.. while i'm still missing you..
a part of my heart is glad that another could make you happy..
i'm glad you're happy.. even without me..
so the only thing i could say is goodbye..
until i could face reality.. and say hello again..

just something i wrote that was on my mind..