Wow.
It's been over a year since I've been on Xanga.
I looked back at my old entries and I just wanted to throw up. LOLZ
I guess you could say that a lot of things have changed in a good way and bad way.
I've realized a lot of things and sometimes you just can't do anything about it.
Guys are jerks.
Girls are bitches.
The End.
-my la la land
by: christina tay
i heard you tried so hard to move on.. was i that much of a bother?
there are so many things still running through in my mind,
but i know the you i miss isnt the current one here.
i guess the one i fell in love with died...
and even as i stare at the ceiling on the other side of the world,
you still run through my mind.
i thought i found another guy, but i still can't like..
i really can't keep lying to myself anymore..
i'm trying so hard to let go because i want to live in the future..
i don't want to live in the past anymore because you left me behind..
a lot of times i ask why.. and sometimes i even feel a little hatred..
but in the end.. no matter what you've done..
i don't understand why my heart still keeps loving you..
and i seriously can't wait til i find another..
another more better than you.. someone who could make me happier than you did..
at the end of the day.. while i'm still missing you..
a part of my heart is glad that another could make you happy..
i'm glad you're happy.. even without me..
so the only thing i could say is goodbye..
until i could face reality.. and say hello again..
just something i wrote that was on my mind..
Man! Seriously, why is this world so fucking cruel?! It's like you think they're really your friend, but they end up fucking lying to you. Come on now. GET REAL! Shit. The next time you need me I won't fucking be here. Man. I hate bitches like you I swear.. Ughhh I just need to let my feelings out. Don't mind me.
Wells, two more days til I leave for Cali away from this fucking bullshit!
Whoop! I failed my driving test T_T it`s okay though I guess.
I`m really looking forward to France. Only the part where I get to be with my awesome cousin Crystal for one whole month. Lolz. Not the part where my mom nags me T_T that`s gonna make me wanna jump off the Eiffel Tower! Hahaha. Well, I guess I`m looking forward to putting the past deep inside my heart to. I know I won`t forget it because even though it didn`t turn out well I think that`s the most memorable part of my past. The only thing I could do now is move on with my life and hope that we could make new memories as friends. It sucks when you love someone in this type of way, but they don`t feel the same. Also, when you miss them in this way. It`s apart of life though. I guess everyone will go through it eventually. Well, just email me while I`m in France 
In a way, I`m afraid to leave because I know that when I come back things will be different for sure.
It`s crazy how time passes by so fast, how emotions are able to change so quickly, how the relationship you had with someone is now gone. It really meant something to me. It`s been exactly six months and five days since things changed. I really miss you. I can`t wait `til this feeling is gone because I hate it. I`m glad to see that you`re happy. I haven`t seen you in forever it seems. Hope you`re happy<3
Sometimes I wish I could hate you, but I don`t. I don`t even come close to hating you, because I still love you</3
Happy 4th of July everyone
Well, it`s 1am right now and I can`t sleep. It`s been that way ever since I found out how that person really feels about me. I guess it`s better knowing now then being lead on some more. I decided that I`m going to be on xanga more since I`m not going to myspace for a while. Whoop, I`m going to France soon. In a way I`m pretty excited. Lolz. Blehh x_x tomorrow is my driving test. I hope I do well. My dad said I get to take the bus if I don`t pass, but I think he`s just kidding xp Today I finished watching this drama. It`s called Wei Xiao Pasta, which means Smiling Pasta. It`s so awesome man. I really want the doll from the movie. Also the keychain and necklace. I`m going to ask my dad to get it for me in China. Hopefully they have it
Hope everyone has a safe and fun 4th of July<3
Wow. It`s been a long time since I`ve been on xanga. A lot of things have changed, and I guess in my point of view they aren`t the best. I believe that I`ll get something out of these experiences though. Kind of excited for the summer. I`m going to France soon, and I guess that`s the place where I`ll leave some of my memories behind. Well, not leave. Just keep them safely deep inside my heart.
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