August 4, 2006

• Well, my parents have been back for a couple of days now. I guess things are cool, but I`m kind of annoyed of them already. =/ It`s like my dad seems like he`s pmsing, and my mom is just the same. -_- Well, on Wednesday I went to the mall. I got my Coach purse finally. I`ve been waiting for my parents to come back to get it. It was so hard choosing though because I liked two purses. I finally picked though.
  
  http://www.coach.com/content/product.aspx?product_no=8386&category_id=188
  
  I got that. Isn`t it nice? Lolz. Yea. I feel like I spend so much money now, and I feel so bad. I spend money yesterday also. Who the heck spends over 100 dollars on bras? That`s crazy huh? I know. Well, I just found out Elgin is going to Reno tomorrow. That means he won`t have much time to talk to me. GRRR!! I`m going to miss him. I hope he has fun though, and of course he will. xp
  
  I put up new pictures and posters in my room. The sad thing is I`m not sure if I`m able to put pictures of Elgin. That realy makes me sad though. I went to his house and I saw so many pictures of me in his room. I wish I was able to put picture of him in my room. I have a picture of him in it, but that`s just not enough. I want a Wilber Pan poster. My parents only bought me Jay Chou. HAHAH. I hella missed my parents though, and I cried before they left. It kind of suprised me though. My dad gave me money because I was crying. Crazy huh?
  
  The crazy thing is I really enjoy buying things for Elgin. I know he likes the stuff I buy him, but he doesn`t like the fact that I buy him things. I always wanted a boyfriend to buy things for, but not just any boyfriend. Someone special, and yea you got that right. He`s really special to me. Schools almost starting. In a way I`m glad because I`m able to see Elgin and my friends everyday. I`m worried though. Not only because of the work load, but because of other things. I hate the fact that I think too much. Aren`t you guys bored of my boring, annoying thoughts. Most of the things that I`m paranoid about aren`t even true, but change because I think of them too much.
  
  I guess it`s because I was always such a lonely child. I was never able to talk to anyone about anything. I wasn`t so closed before though. It shocks me that I behave this way.
  
  I hate knowing that I`m slowly pushing him away. I never mean to though. I know he loves me a lot. I`m just a crazy girl. Maybe I just need to go into the mental hospital, or a place where I`m not able to think.
  
  Well, that`s all for now. I`ma wait for Elgin to call me.
  
  Elgin&Christina
  "Two hearts, One love"
  
  I love you Elgin. (muah)

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