Well, today was my first day as a junior, and I don't know if I could call it a good day. Since I came home crying and all. Well, this is my schedule:

00 ; U.S. History AP ; McNamara, L.
01 ; Alg 2/Trig H ; Abdallah, T.
02 ; Anat/Phys H ; McCurry
03 ; Japanese 3 H ; Mata, M.
04 ; Biology 2 AP ; Ward, G.
05 ; Physics 1 H ; Sanders, J.
06 ; Adv Orchestra ; Cushinery, C.
07 ; Adv Stdy-Strings ; Cushinery, C.
08 ; Eng Lit/Comp AP ; Blank, B

When I first looked at my schedule. HAHAH.. I thought it looked like a hard schedule. >_< Oh wells.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
JANINE SHISHIDO!

Yesterday, was fun. It was my last hang out day before summer starts. So here's how it went. I woke up when it was around eight am, then I ate. Watched some of my drama. It's called "Love Contract." My cousin introduced it to me. Took a shower after. Waited for my dad to get home, then went to Clark. I wanted to get my schedule. Janine and Justin said you couldn't or something though. -_- We watched to Janine's house after. It was hot, and seemed like a forever walk. It wasn't long though. She woke up her mother, then her mother drove us to Morning Glory. Justin forgot his cellphone, and wallet somewhere after I gave it to him. LOLZ. We walked to Diamond Bakery after. Well, we wanted to go to Tea Planet, but I needed to poo >_< So I bought Janine cake, and I got me a sandwich because I was hungry. We went to Tea Planet, and got some boba. Just chilled. Drawing on the mats, and talking. We saw Cho, and his friend. >_< I forgot his name. Sorry. Well, I thought Cho almost forgot my name, but he promised me he didn't. I believed him XD After that I called Elgin because I wanted to see him badly. He needed a ride to come hang out, and also to go home though. Something wrong with his dad's leg >_< Hope he feels better. So, met up with Anita around 2PM. Saw her driving when we were in Chinatown Mall. I wasn't sure if it was her though, so I went to look. Guess what?!?! It was her!! So I ran up to her and hugged her! It was super coolio. After that we went to Janine's house to get Justin's cellphone, and wallet. Headed off to pick up my love. We arrived, and hung out at his house a little. He had to wait for his mommy to wake up so he could tell her he was leaving. So he told her and we were all putting on our shoes. We decided to tell his sister to come, so she did. Saissei, Alex and them kept calling also. Luckily Elgin's sister doesn't take long. We drove there. Well, Anita drove there, and we went to the bowling alley. They weren't there though. Elgin went to take a crap. HAHAHHA Justin went to look for them. We all met up, and we went to pay and STUFF. There were like ten people. LOLZ. Elgin monster paid for me, because I didn't want to play. He wanted me to though, so yea. x_x It's okay. They were being weird and changing the names on the score thingy. My name was Tynah, then Moocow, then Titi. -_- It was Titi for the longest time. Grrr. LOLZ. It's okay though. We finished playing. I was tired and felt sick so I'd go sit down. Elgin gave me his shirt, and it's so cute. He was all putting it on me. Lolz. I stole Tynahbear from his house, and stuff it in Anita's purse. Took it out after we finished playing. Went to the arcade after. Didn't play anything though. Everyone played stuff, so that's cool. After went to eat sonic, chatted, then took everyone home. ;] The end.
Here are pictures:




























That's all for now XDDDD

NEW LAYOUT!!! ;
× ·· ·  layout theme:  just plain&simple
× ·· · layout made on: aug26`06
× ·· · version released: aug26`06
× ·· · skilled by: Christina Tay. ( clickable )
× ·· · layout made with: Photoshop, Paintshop 7 & Paint
× ·· · addicted since: sep25`04
× ·· · dedicated to: Elgin
× ·· · main song: Natalie - Love You So
× ·· · xanga colors: Black, Pink, White

Updates.
So, My friends and family from cali have been coming to vegas. It's been alright. Very fun yet depressing. Reasons for that I just don't want to mention, but whatever. Yesterday was really fun though. I didn't sleep until like 5am. I was asleep for like 2 hours, then my cousin Steven called. I woke up, then waited for them to come. After doing that we chatted a little, and stuff. Went back to sleep, because I was really tired. Justin called around 12pm because he's back in vegas. We went to Texas Station. Called Justin, but he didn't pick up! I went grrrr! Lolz. He finally picked up though XDDD So yea.. that was cool. We went to eat because Justin offered to pay. Still feel bad, but thanks Justin! I didn't spend that much of your money xppp Elgin called while I was eating, but yeaaa. After that we went to drink some boba. I got Li-Chi Jelly Ice. Yummmm. I took a picture of it, and put it on Justin's wallpaper on his cellphone. After that went back to Texas Station, and felt like a long time that I had to wait for my aunt to come. HAHAH. After that we went home. Kelly was there GRRRR. I found out that my cousin was sleeping on my bed too while I was out. So I started to smell my bed. HAHAH. We went to this karaoke place after. It was really fun. Took some pictures, sang a lot, and just hung out. HAHAH. Tiffany, and my phone rang so all the older people went outside to talk to the parents. So Fionna, Tiffany, and I were singing Dancing Queen, and we just started jumping on the seats. HAHAHA. Then while we were doing that Masa, and Ricky came in. They had like these really suprised looks. HAHAH.. hella funny. After we went karaoke-ing we went to eat. We ate at Satay, and that's when shit started happening, but forget that. Let's make this a happy entry.

I haven't been online lately, and I feel like I don't know what's going on anymore. =/ I feel that I haven't talked to certain people a lot, so that's why I feel kind of sad. I miss my Elgin. I haven't seen him in 9 days! I counted. GAHHH. It seems so long. I could still feel his hugs sometimes, but I know he's not there. So poopie. I guess that's all for now. ;]

I`m lazy, so I'll just post the pictures with all of us. >_<

Masa is crazy for wearing long sleeves! HAHAHA jk.. but I think I'd be sweating like a monkey x_x Well, that's all for now.

It's almost five AM in the morning right now. I have nothing to do. Just waiting for my cousins in Cali to come. No updates really. Haha. My cousin and I were being weird, and I guess gross. We're just cool though. We were all farting everywhere. HAHA. I guess? We called people, and we were gonna be like..."My cousin needs to fat." Dude. Total randomness. I was never like this before so late at night. HAHAHAHA. I miss my Elgin. He fell asleep when I was eating. I miss his voice, and his hug! I haven't seen him for two weeks?! AHHH. I miss him!!!. Well, enough of my retardedness. HAHAH. Have a good day everyone ;]

Thoughts.
has he ever tried to understand how i really feel or has he really been assume it? it makes me feel bad to know that he lied to me. i didn't mind that he was talking to her. i really didn't, but i really mind the fact that he lied to me. i heard her voice when he was telling her that he was talking to me. in a way that did make me happy, but i know i'm mainly upset because he lied to me. how could you say you want someone to fully trust you.. when you'd lie to them about something that little? and how could someone fully trust someone when they know that a lie like that has been told. it may not seem like something big, but it hurts me a lot. tiffany an gave me some advice, and it was stuff that made me realize i really wanted to trust him. and.. i've been trying. but how could one simple thing turn out like this? i really don't know. i just feel really hurt, because i really want to trust him.

i seriously think so much. when people tell me a certain thing.. it stays on my mind. like... how come guys do the opposite.. when they know you don't like it when they do something. it's really weird. it's true that you learn more and more everyday. i have so much thoughts. even when i was a kid i had so much thoughts. it's funny because i still remember one of them.. it's.. "how did we come into this world.. why am i here" i don't get myself sometimes, and i'm pretty sure that's why many people don't understand me also. i don't feel it's wrong that i love this guy though. i feel happier that he's in my life, even though there are some things wrong with our relationship. i mainly feel it's my fault, but still.. shouldn't he care how i feel?

i'm thankful that he's there.. no doubt. it's just i don't know what i'm thinking right now. and i guess i just wanna go blah blah blah.. i feel that everytime i try to trust him.. he does something to lose my trust.. why does it happen that way? i know both of us are really fed up, but we still seem to be there for each other, and love one another. i wonder many things, and i don't know why. sometimes i just wish i didn't thing that much, but at times it's a good thing.

Overall, I was mainly upset about the fact that he lied to me because I asked him more than once about him "fixing his phone." and he lied to me all those times. Kinda like.. I gave him a chance to tell me the truth, but he still didn't.

Updates.
this weekend has been alright. i got to hang out with tiffany an. i haven't hung out with her in like 2 years. it was really cool. the first day she came.. we hung out with john and my cousin's of course. because yeaaa.. we watched movies, and ate pho. we went to tea planet after. yummmyyy i drank red bean milk tea with ice cream.. freakin` good man.. i feel hungry now thinking about it. then we went to cue d's and hung out. freddy and some other peeps were there. it was cool. i was so amused by freddy. hahah.. the way he opened his cellphone. what a loser. hhahaha.. so that day was pretty good. i went to tiffany tay's house after. i was gonna sleep over, but my father didn't want me to. he came to drive me. then i went home and talked to my love.

woke up the next day.. not feeling really happy, but i was glad tiffany an was in vegas. i took a shower then ate. after i walked to tiffany tay's house. we went to circus after. then some stuff happened. -_- tiffany an, her brothers, and i ate mcdonalds. yummmy ice cream. we went home after like 2 hours, and we ate again O_O lolz. then we were gonna go out because tiffany tay asked i guess? haha.. i don't think she really asked me though. b/c of stuff.... uhhh yeaa.. but no room so tiffany an and i went to my house. we chatted and went on the comp. my mom came home soon. we asked to get boba and yayyyy we got it. hahah come to think of it.. my mom needs to give me money because i freakin paid for kelly's boba. hahahha.. we went home after, but we already finished our boba in the car. we watched stairway to heaven. hahah crazyyyy.. we're together getting depressed by a korean drama??? we're weirdos.. she plucked my eyebrows.. she said they're fury.. it hurt.. and my right foot was being all weird.. HAHHA.. after that we just kept watching.. then we went on the comp and looked at pictures.. and stuff.. then watched some more.. but she went to sleep so i talked to elgin and fell asleep. after she woke up so i did too... somehow? so.. then we were talking for two hours.. then watch stairway to heaven b/c she wanted to be depressed??? hahaha.. she's weird.. then she had to go.. and i was sleepy.. so i didn't walk her out.. SORRY >_< hahaha.. after that i went to sleep.. then i woke up and just did stuff.. i got a new sn too.. if you want it.. ask?? hahahh.. after that.. i talked to elgin.. he called me.. i was happy.. then i just did some tynah stuff.. i only ate like once today... hahahha weird.. -_- that's all i guess.. here are some pictures:
















I saw this in Elgin's AIM profile:

"..and if she knocks on my door
i'll give her the key..
just one look in her eyes
and i know i'll be..
everything that she sees in me,
more than i ever thought i could be...

i hoped to find something..
but when i returned..
i was empty handed..

nobody told me that love could be so cruel..

i'll find a way..
to open up the door that's been keeping me from happiness..
using your love as the key.."

hmm...idk.. lalalala. I guess that's all for now. x_x

Well, I got to see Elgin today. YAYY! XDD and guess what?! He gave me my rings. They're so pretty. He would be such a sweetie. Hehe. Well, I didn't sleep until 4AM or something. I saw a pimple, so I was like ... "O_O" then I thought of going to sleep so it'll go away. It kinda of did, so that cool. Woke up at 7AM. I missed Elgin, and I think I called him. He didn't pick up though. Tiffany called to ask if I wanted Starbucks, but I said "No thanks." Lolz. Then I went to take a shower and changed. After I got ready to leave. We got there, and I was really hyper. It was pretty cool. I thought it would've been bad, but it was pretty good. I had a good time, and I'm glad I got to see everyone. XD It wasn't there weird though. I thought it would be because Young and Cho aren't going to be there anymore. and ever since I've been to Key Club I've seen them. even in 8th grade when I wasn't at Clark yet. Lolz. Well, Elgin and I went to hang out alone. I kind of felt bad though, because I thought maybe he wants to be with his friends. I'm happy we got to have our alone time though. After that he had to go at around 12PM. I was sad ;[ Poopie. It's okay though. I called my mom, then I went to Tace Bell. I was sooo hungry, and got kind of angry at my mom. She was talking on the phone while she was driving. I thought I was going to have another dying moment. Had one yesterday, but luckily I'm still alive. I wouldn't have gotten these rings, and got to hug elgin or put a hello kitty band-aid on him. Lolz. Well, I ate and stuff and after that I just watched TV. My mom wanted to talk to me, and she asked about Michael. So I told her and answered her what she asked me mainly. Then she was like.."Oh well, as long as Tiffany likes him we can't say anything." I felt really bad, and I still do. That's why I'm writing this entry. I asked her.."Well, what about me?" and she's like.."Well, she's different from you." and she was all saying how the guys I like aren't "experienced" and it has nothing to do with what I'm asking. Then she said I'm too young. I don't get life sometimes. I mean she never even got to know Elgin, and even if Elgin hurts me sometimes I still think he's a really great guy. I just wish I could have a chance to prove them wrong, but haven't I? I mean.. he's still with me, and it's been almost two years. Don't want to think about this right now, and hopefully Elgin doesn't read this. I don't want him to feel bad, and if he does read this. I just want to tell him that I love him so much.

Everyone... meaning Tiffany mainly, and Alex always say I write about Elgin too much. LOLZ. It's kind of true huh?! Well, I see Tiffany almost everyday so that's no suprise. LOLZ. We went to look at shoes yesterday. Tiffany drank starbucks, and she always calls me a doogal Sometimes it makes me mad, but if she's happy making fun of me then fine I'll just cry. GRRR.. HAHAH.. JK. It's almost her and Michael's 9 months. WEEEE Her longest relationship, and still going strong XDD It better be. >;T I'll beat up Michael. He's mean.. he made fun of me today. I saw Alex today too. She had these booty shorts on, and she wanted to dance. LOLZ. Her new haircut is nice. XDD She ate Skittles, and they were nasty so she spit it out. I don't know what I'm talking about either. I got to see Janine today too!!.. HAHAH it was the same old Janine. I thought today was cool. Except for yeaaa.. ;[ Well, i'm going to the gym soon. I'm fat x_x hahahaha.. I need to shut up XDD Hope you guys had a great day. Miss ya Elgin.

This entry is for my pookie. XD

Well, at this very moment Elgin and I aren't talking. It doesn't matter though, because I still want to tell the world how much I love this guy. He means so much to me, and no one will ever be able to replace him. He doesn't know what I think of him most of the time, because I always tell him the opposite and I don't know why. Like I'm sure he knows I care and love him. I know he cares and loves me too, but I always tell him that he doesn't. I'm not a great girlfriend, and I admit it. I'm still young and have many things to learn. I used to think I didn't have a purpose in this world, and I thought of killing myself a lot. Especially because I always felt unwanted until he came along. He made me feel wanted. He let me know the feeling of being loved by someone that I'm not related to. We've been through a lot, and I know for a fact that he wants me to prove him wrong one day. That I will trust him the way he trust me. I'll stay with you for a long time just as long as you want me there. I love you a lot, and you'll always have a place in my heart. I care about you a lot, and you're a great guy. I just hope that in the end things will be alright. I can't imagine my life without you, and it seems like many people can't imagine us apart. That's not important though. What really matters is what we think of us. I know you've told me before that you want to be with me for a long time, and you have proved it. Even though you know.. with all the things going on .. you're still here. I feel so lucky that you're still here, and that you're in my life. Four more months until our two years! Time goes by so fast, and I'm glad I get to spend it with you!
I love you Elgin.

++___//EDiT++
Hey guys! xpp He did read this entry. Here's what he said:
[00:18] ELGiN: thats cool the thing you made it's nice..
[00:18] ELGiN: i didn't make anything so sorry for that..
[00:18] ELGiN: happy 20 months though
[00:18] ELGiN: xD
[00:20] ELGiN: i bought you rings though.. one fancy and one simple.. i could give it to you tomorrow..

Well, my day was just perfect. I guess there's no words better to explain it. I haven't seen Elgin for the longest time. At least that's how it feels. I still feel lucky to have him in my life though, even if I'm not able to see him everyday, or every other day like some of those lucky girls. I still feel hella lucky though. Today I woke up to my pookie's lovely voice, because I asked him to call me. YAY. Lolz. After that I ate some food, then got ready to go see him. I'm always ready like way to early though >_< It's a good thing though right?LOLZ. Well, at around 12:45PM I left the house and I had to drive there. ;[ I was kind of scared because my dad lets me drive like ever ten years. HAHHA. My family exaggerates too much. -_- Elgin called me while I was driving, and I think Tiffany did also. I went inside and Elgin still wasn't there. Him and his flip ass. -_- After Elgin came we went to watch Step up, then Click. It was cool. When the movies finished it was around 6PM. Wah. x_x We went to Fiesta after to get some ice cream, but we ended up getting milkshake? Lolz. We're just a weird couple. LOLZ. Then we went outside to sit. Just hung out, and took lots and lots of pictures. We got "ice cream" all over each other too. Icky poo. LOLZ. I felt so sticky. Lolz. It was still fun though. The stupid thing was we didn't get any napkins. Lolz. OH yea. Elgin gave me this hella adorable chain to put on my backpack. He has a pink one, and I have a blue one. hehe. Here's a picture of it.

Isn't it adorable? Lolz. When it was almost 8PM we went back to Texas Station. There were these weirdo police kinda thingys looking at us. ;[ Then we just took some more pictures. HAHA. I just love having pictures with him. We took over 80 pictures, so I think I'm just going to show a few. They're not in order and I added designs on them.
So here are the pictures:

Elgin hugging me. XD

Sitting there! LOLZ.

A heart made with Elgin hands and Tynah hands. Well, hand. LOL.

Our matching rings.

Elgin trying to kissie my cheeks.

Smiling.

Me smiling, and Elgin sticking his tounge out. Lolz.

Elgin drinking Ramune. xp

Me drinking Ramune. XD

XD

Me smiling and Elgin being weird XD

Oh no. I have to go soon. x_x

Our feet XD

Well, I guess that's all I'm going to put up. Heheh. Sometimes it still feels like we just started dating. Weirdness. Lolz. Well, when I came home I ate some food and chilled with the mother. Lolz. Then I was so tired I went to my room to just lay there like a lump. LOLZ. Then I fell asleep. Right now I'm waiting for Elgin to call. I don't know if he will though. x_x Talking online, and that's all for now.

I haven't updated for a while. I guess? HAHAAH. Not much has happened either. My little cousin won the spelling bee. She won first place, but her stinky sisters forgot to call me. I got new jeans. I want new shoes, but I think that'll take a while. HAHAH. I got this coolio chapstick. It's like bigger than usual chapstick. Yeaaa.. don't mind me up there I was just being stupid.. HAHAHA.. Ohhhh.. Here's a picture:

Most people have never seen my hair up, or really in any style except down. HAHA. So yea.. I'ma go now. ;]

=O Step up is out today!! HAHA.

Well, today was boring. I talked online with Elgin about "stuff." Then at 4AM we talked on the phone because I was sleepy. We had plans to go out today because we miss each other and all. Well, I fell asleep. He called me when it was almost 7AM telling me he wasn`t able to make it because he`s going to Reno and Cali with his family. I was VERY excited to see him and I didn`t even expect this to happen. So I kind of cried because I really miss him. I guess that means my day didn`t go so well. Elgin promised he'd called me as much as he could though, so that makes up for it. Tiffany came over and we just talked about stuff. Well, here are some pictures